Intricate distractions flow through a mesmerized soul
As romantic rhythms beat on a rapidly breaking heart
Melodies of sweet release tempt the tired spirit within
A novel of notes depict dark secrets on a simple page of black and white
Timed measures express pure bliss and complete fear
A moderately slow piece of life with prestissimo interchanges
Has a downbeat of syncopation, something that makes no sense to the practiced artist
A wall closes around the prodigy inside of us, as trembling hands take hold of the instrument of life
When the music is in perfect pitch, the heart rests, but those intricate distractions bombard us
And weaken the inner harmony. Eventually the music fades and the sounds of others cradle our every
move until we conduct another moment of synchronized melodies to entertain our weary souls
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Friday, February 19, 2010
I swear I'm still alive
Well, it's looks as though I have been wordless for about a month now. Of course, we all know I can talk a blue streak, but I guess I just haven't had the motivation to write it out lately.
Things have been fairly calm as I prepare to move to my one bedroom next month. I'm looking forward to a fresh start, no matter how small it may be. It's just always nice to reorganize and start on your own. That's how I see it at least.
I'm one of those weird people who finds joy in organizing closets and pantries. I can't wait to buy shelves to display my electic book collection and photos of my friends and family. Plus, I enjoy shopping for all of the little things I need.
Anyone know of a recliner that needs a good home? Or a small dining set for that matter? It's fun looking even online for these things. Of course, I always seem to end up at Pottery Barn or Crate & Barrell where my money never seems to stretch far enough. Oh the things I would do with a gift certificate to those places!
Anyways, this was just to prove that I'm still kicking. :)
Things have been fairly calm as I prepare to move to my one bedroom next month. I'm looking forward to a fresh start, no matter how small it may be. It's just always nice to reorganize and start on your own. That's how I see it at least.
I'm one of those weird people who finds joy in organizing closets and pantries. I can't wait to buy shelves to display my electic book collection and photos of my friends and family. Plus, I enjoy shopping for all of the little things I need.
Anyone know of a recliner that needs a good home? Or a small dining set for that matter? It's fun looking even online for these things. Of course, I always seem to end up at Pottery Barn or Crate & Barrell where my money never seems to stretch far enough. Oh the things I would do with a gift certificate to those places!
Anyways, this was just to prove that I'm still kicking. :)
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Calming down
We plan so long and work so hard for the big events in our lives and then we watch how quickly they pass. Without the calming hand from a friend or wise words to "breathe" we could easily blink and miss everything.
I've been anticipating the wedding of my best friend for several months and today has become the "day after." I waved the couple off to their honey moon, entertained their remaining guests and put away my maid of honor dress. For them, it is the start of the rest of their lives and to me, it is a day to settle down and recover from the adrenaline rush.
The wedding was truly flawless and absolutely beautiful and I have finally found the time to sit in quiet to enjoy it. I had an amazing time and met some wonderful people that I hope to see again in the near future. Thank God for photographs so that I can immerse myself in the memories of it over and over.
Tomorrow will be hard to get my mind to focus and realize that the event has passed. But I am sure that other projects will take over and I will soon find myself immersed in other various emotions. But if I can just enjoy the moment, then all will be well.
Monday, January 11, 2010
Monday Morning Call
The call came early and I quickly knew
That something dark was burdening you
Your shallow voice was faltering
A hidden truth you were altering
Apologizing for lost memories
Vocalizing your personal reveries
A twinge of regret in your tired voice
As you second guessed your final choice
I can’t help but remember our year
Full of grace and devoid of fear
But the sharp pain comes from goodbye
And yours was sudden you cannot deny
This morning call was without direction
Perhaps you were seeking my affection
I cannot refute that it had my mind racing
But I’m done with all of this backwards chasing
We could go on forever with this flirtatious game
But the ending will inevitably be the same
Young souls confused and tender hearts broken
From actions taken and words unspoken
Whether or not I was wrong to answer the phone
Is not the issue as I ponder regrets of my own
The one thing that is clear from this call
Is that you really did love me after all…
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Just rambling...
This blog has kind of turned in to a poetry journal of sorts. Although that was not my original intention, it has been a great outlet for sharing some of my old and new stuff. However, I have not posted in a few days so I thought a non-rhyming, broad update was due.
Things have been a little nutty lately gearing up for my best friend's wedding. Sara is getting married on January 16th! I'm sure on January 17 we'll all look back and say "WOW" but until then, we (mainly she) have a lot to do. This Saturday is her bachlorette party. It will definitely be tame and not require the assistance of any male dancers or phallic shaped shot glasses...much to my disappointment. :)
Instead, the bridal party is going in for facials and massages in the afternoon and then we'll go somewhere Asian for dinner. We'll make it fun, but there will not be any craziness....unless of course Sara wants there to be!
Aside from the wedding, I am also trying to find somewhere to live. Sara will be moving out after the honeymoon and then our lease is up in March. I would like to stay in this complex, but there are no one-bedrooms available. I found two other complexes that I really like, but they too do not have any one bedrooms. Sadness.
I'm hoping by the end of January some places will come up. But mark my words...I will NOT be moving back in with the parental units.
Work has been busy and church too....I'm just looking forward to February 1st. The wedding and the 25th anniversary celebration at church will have come and gone. And that is when I will take my pretty self down to the spa and not leave for at least 3 hours. Pure bliss is waiting for me in less than a month.
This is not to say that I do not like to keep busy, but it seems a lot has piled on these past few months in various aspects of my life. I want to find new networking opportunities to participate in different ways around the city and meet new people. I have been asked to joined Rotary, but have yet to go to a meeting. I just need to do it. Not sure what I am nervous about, or if I am even nervous at all. I guess this is just a different time in my life and it is time to find new ways to make it exciting and new! I know....cheesy!
Anyhow, time for bed. Tomorrow is the UT/Bama game! Can't wait to see the Longhorns kick Bama's butt!
Peace
Things have been a little nutty lately gearing up for my best friend's wedding. Sara is getting married on January 16th! I'm sure on January 17 we'll all look back and say "WOW" but until then, we (mainly she) have a lot to do. This Saturday is her bachlorette party. It will definitely be tame and not require the assistance of any male dancers or phallic shaped shot glasses...much to my disappointment. :)
Instead, the bridal party is going in for facials and massages in the afternoon and then we'll go somewhere Asian for dinner. We'll make it fun, but there will not be any craziness....unless of course Sara wants there to be!
Aside from the wedding, I am also trying to find somewhere to live. Sara will be moving out after the honeymoon and then our lease is up in March. I would like to stay in this complex, but there are no one-bedrooms available. I found two other complexes that I really like, but they too do not have any one bedrooms. Sadness.
I'm hoping by the end of January some places will come up. But mark my words...I will NOT be moving back in with the parental units.
Work has been busy and church too....I'm just looking forward to February 1st. The wedding and the 25th anniversary celebration at church will have come and gone. And that is when I will take my pretty self down to the spa and not leave for at least 3 hours. Pure bliss is waiting for me in less than a month.
This is not to say that I do not like to keep busy, but it seems a lot has piled on these past few months in various aspects of my life. I want to find new networking opportunities to participate in different ways around the city and meet new people. I have been asked to joined Rotary, but have yet to go to a meeting. I just need to do it. Not sure what I am nervous about, or if I am even nervous at all. I guess this is just a different time in my life and it is time to find new ways to make it exciting and new! I know....cheesy!
Anyhow, time for bed. Tomorrow is the UT/Bama game! Can't wait to see the Longhorns kick Bama's butt!
Peace
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Sick of being Sick at Christmas
So, it seems to be a trend with me to be sick and somewhat miserable during the Christmas season. I'm on track to be sick for the fifth year in a row.
In 2005, I was of course sick with cancer during the holidays and spent Christmas morning in the hospital. That's the most extreme it has been, but that was the beginning of my terrible immune system.
In 2006, my dad had cancer during Christmas, but fortunately he was not in the hospital. We were just anticipating his upcoming surgery at the beginning of the year. I believe I also had a bad sinus infection as well.
In 2007 I had a staph infection on my right leg that was so painful I could barely sit down. I spent Christmas morning with a heating pad on my leg.
In 2008 it was another sinus infection/cold. Antibiotics meant no celebratory wine for me.
Now here we are in 2009 and I am yet again on antibiotics and other various medications.
So, my goal for 2010 is to be marathon ready on Christmas morning. I want to be obnoxiously hyper and ready for anything. In fact, it would be nice to not get sick all year long.
Dear Santa:
Please bring me the cure for horrible sinuses and a low immune system. And don't make it an exercise plan....I'm too lazy. ;)
xoxo
Beth
In 2005, I was of course sick with cancer during the holidays and spent Christmas morning in the hospital. That's the most extreme it has been, but that was the beginning of my terrible immune system.
In 2006, my dad had cancer during Christmas, but fortunately he was not in the hospital. We were just anticipating his upcoming surgery at the beginning of the year. I believe I also had a bad sinus infection as well.
In 2007 I had a staph infection on my right leg that was so painful I could barely sit down. I spent Christmas morning with a heating pad on my leg.
In 2008 it was another sinus infection/cold. Antibiotics meant no celebratory wine for me.
Now here we are in 2009 and I am yet again on antibiotics and other various medications.
So, my goal for 2010 is to be marathon ready on Christmas morning. I want to be obnoxiously hyper and ready for anything. In fact, it would be nice to not get sick all year long.
Dear Santa:
Please bring me the cure for horrible sinuses and a low immune system. And don't make it an exercise plan....I'm too lazy. ;)
xoxo
Beth
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